What am i doing with my life?

The recent "Kolaveri Di" has reached international standards. The fact being that the young music genius behind this was one of the loathsome seniors of my school is all unsaid. 

Last week , I see the newspaper , I spot two of my school-mates being some models for some big shot company. 

Yes. All of us did our schooling together. I was probably treated with much more respect around school than them , but now?

I don't say , just because they're famous now, it makes me any inferior to them . I've always known what I want to do with my life. Since when I didn't even know what a genetic engineer does , I wanted to be one. I wanted to be that research scholar who found out something or did something spectacular. A bit geeky you think? 

Well , then it makes me one.

Worst of all , i thought my ambition was the easiest . get into the engineering college that was decent , study what i love and go to some fancy university abroad and specialize in something i love more. 

Skipping the first stepping stone itself is so hard now. I study some crap , I write even a worse crap and i sit and wonder all the time.

What the heck am i doing with my life?

My friend was so keen in architecture. She talked about her classes and the ridiculous tasks she was asked to do. I laughed along with her. I also thought on how studying that for 5 years was so hard and settling down after that . But , every time i go to her place now , she still laments , on how much work she does and how they don't treat them with proper regard but i can still clearly see that she loves whatever it is she does. 

The world is filled with talents. Be it drawing , or music or sports. I see my people excelling in those , i am psyched , but at the same time , very jealous. Jealous that not only , being home and doing nothing or having a awesome evening with my friends is the fun part of their life. The fun part of life is in every single thing they do , every single thing they say. 

And I want that ! 

I always try to take everything around me in the good sense. Similarly , the jealously is much needed driving force in me to do the right , probably.

Engineering might have screwed me over . But I have my other things still left in me . I've never really thought , a man achieves everything when he is famous . I've always thought he achieves everything when he makes himself happy. 

Here's to making us happy !