What am i doing with my life?

The recent "Kolaveri Di" has reached international standards. The fact being that the young music genius behind this was one of the loathsome seniors of my school is all unsaid. 

Last week , I see the newspaper , I spot two of my school-mates being some models for some big shot company. 

Yes. All of us did our schooling together. I was probably treated with much more respect around school than them , but now?

I don't say , just because they're famous now, it makes me any inferior to them . I've always known what I want to do with my life. Since when I didn't even know what a genetic engineer does , I wanted to be one. I wanted to be that research scholar who found out something or did something spectacular. A bit geeky you think? 

Well , then it makes me one.

Worst of all , i thought my ambition was the easiest . get into the engineering college that was decent , study what i love and go to some fancy university abroad and specialize in something i love more. 

Skipping the first stepping stone itself is so hard now. I study some crap , I write even a worse crap and i sit and wonder all the time.

What the heck am i doing with my life?

My friend was so keen in architecture. She talked about her classes and the ridiculous tasks she was asked to do. I laughed along with her. I also thought on how studying that for 5 years was so hard and settling down after that . But , every time i go to her place now , she still laments , on how much work she does and how they don't treat them with proper regard but i can still clearly see that she loves whatever it is she does. 

The world is filled with talents. Be it drawing , or music or sports. I see my people excelling in those , i am psyched , but at the same time , very jealous. Jealous that not only , being home and doing nothing or having a awesome evening with my friends is the fun part of their life. The fun part of life is in every single thing they do , every single thing they say. 

And I want that ! 

I always try to take everything around me in the good sense. Similarly , the jealously is much needed driving force in me to do the right , probably.

Engineering might have screwed me over . But I have my other things still left in me . I've never really thought , a man achieves everything when he is famous . I've always thought he achieves everything when he makes himself happy. 

Here's to making us happy ! 

 

Study holidays , what are they really?

Being part of Anna University , technically sucks , but the only fact that makes all other college jealous is our ridiculously long study holidays !

Yes. If we ignore our semester practicals that happens ad mist the holidays , we get almost a month off.. 

The problematic thing that the others don't get is that  study holidays comes with a tag of its own , it's "studying" time. So going out , or watching TV or staying online all night and morning ; technically my holiday routine doesn't please my parents. 

Okay , Stop judging already , pleasing parents part is sort of an over reaction . I mean when have we ever done anything to please them? but i happened to have some highly intolerable friends who update on what they study and asking me when m studying and worst of all- advising or asking advice! 

I might seem as this tensed girl before exam getting all my last minute doubts covered up , but that doesn't give them the right to judge me as a whatever. 

It takes my best friends understand that part of me because they know i give a crap about exams only the last day ; so, until then its a huge misery to put up with people.

Well, i know all of us do 'the 'l finish so many units in so many days' thing . It's like the spider story , Robert the Bruce one,where he notices the determined actions of the tiny spider to create its meticulous web despite its innumerable failures along the way. We try and try until we want to make the Utopian vision come true one fine day.  

But as mentioned , it is definitely Utopian and it never comes true. 

And parents! they do tend to get a little too disturbed . Even though they've come to a place where they understand that we are in college and how according to them we've magically matured overnight , they still have this tendency in them to give us push or two during this time of the year. I dunno what pleasure they get , 'cause they clearly know their kid never studies. So for the joy of it , we get piles of book and stack them to fool them and they, though they know too well that we didn't bother to study are contented that we at least made an effort to take the books out for their sake. Funny world i say ! 

This study holidays , for me , is getting messed up worst of all. First , the subjects! Which idiot even frames the syllabus for bio-tech pursuing engineering students here? 'Cause i know I'd do better job at it. Chemical engineering subjects clearly as the name suggests are chemical engineering ones! I understand that one needs the basis of it , but not the whole damn package ! 

So basically , we know nothing! We were able pass (or rather ace) the subjects because, one, we knew the whole question paper( with choice) the previous evening and other being that our teachers were distinguished nutjobs that the gibberish in our paper somehow made perfect sense to them ! 

With all this running over my head , some part inside me asks me study . the other side strongly disapproves. Its been days since this internal chaos has begun. So , study holidays . what are they really? A pain in the ass!

and from the fact that i took time to write this piece of nothing and how sluggishly I've been in front of my TV watching a movie after another on a row , and of course watching my favorite shows all over again out of utter joblessness , you now know the clear winner. 

All hail the other side !